Married at First Sight’s Jamie Otis Displays on “Angelversary” three Years After Miscarriage
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It has been three years since Jamie Otis and Doug Hehner misplaced their son Johnathan Edward Hehner.
On Saturday, the Married at First Sight couple took to Instagram to pay tribute to their “angel child.”
“Comfortable angelversary to our first-born son, Johnathan Edward,” Otis captioned a sequence of pictures, together with one of many pair crying on the hospital. “Three years in the past as we speak I sat on a hospital stretcher pushing and screaming in excruciating ache. I used to be delivering my child boy at simply 17 weeks, 1 day pregnant.”
Wanting again on the devastating day, Otis described the ache as an “out-of-body expertise” and one which was felt by her soul.
“His little physique was…so tiny and fragile, however he was *excellent* with all 10 fingers and 10 toes,” she recalled. “I held him shut and kissed his candy face. He was manner too small to outlive. I hate that I by no means bought the prospect to rock him to sleep or bounce him til he laughed. My coronary heart aches I could not shield and nurture him. I would have given *something* to maintain him secure so he might develop to be wholesome, completely satisfied and powerful.”
Otis then revealed she nonetheless wonders “what it would be wish to have him working round the home.”
“Would he have preferred vehicles and vehicles or bugs and animals?” she wrote. “I do know he’s up in Heaven bouncing on clouds and dancing with the angels now. As I kissed his candy face goodbye, I whispered to him that I might spend my life honoring his and I will by no means break that promise.”
Close to the top of her put up, the truth TV star shared a message for different ladies who’ve suffered a miscarriage.
“One in 4 pregnancies finish in miscarriage/loss,” she wrote. “Should you’re a mama within the midst of this—the ache is excruciating. I am so sorry, mama. I will not say ‘All the pieces occurs for a cause’ or ‘A minimum of you recognize you will get pregnant’ [because] I keep in mind secretly hating it each time somebody mentioned issues like that to me. Like, what might be a very good cause for Johnathan not having the prospect at life? AND sure I’m grateful I can get pregnant, however I wished THAT being pregnant—THAT child. What I’ll say is that this: Though you are going by way of a few of the darkest days of your life, please know the storm does not come with out leaving a rainbow on the finish. And it is OK to cry, scream, and GRIEVE so long as you want.”
Lastly, she wrote she believes “my angel up in Heaven is watching over us [every day] and we are going to meet once more at some point.”
“Till then, I’ll spend my life honoring his quick one,” she concluded.
Otis additionally posted photos from her being pregnant on the time, in addition to a shot of a card she acquired from her caregivers after the miscarriage. As well as, she shared footage of herself cleansing up a tree she had planted for her baby.
“I do know he is bouncing on clouds with the angels,” she wrote alongside the shot.
Hehner additionally posted an image from the couple’s 2016 being pregnant announcement, which confirmed them holding a onesie with the child’s due date.
“Immediately is our candy angel child, Johnathan’s angelversary,” he wrote alongside the pic. “Not a day goes by that we do not take into consideration him and surprise what he would’ve been like. @jamienotis and I do know that he watches over us and his little sister @henleygracehehner each single day. He’s all the time with us. We’ll all the time hold his reminiscence alive. We love you a lot, Johnathan!”
Again in 2016, Otis wrote a weblog put up about how the couple picked the title Johnathan Edward. After looking on-line for various concepts, she learn that “Johnathan” means “present from God” and “silently sobbed.”
“We determined to call our child boy Johnathan as a result of he’s actually a present from God,” she wrote on the time. “We love him a lot and can’t wait to at some point be reunited with this baby. Doug’s center title is Edward after his grandpa. Doug wished to provide him his center title. Our firstborn will share daddy’s center title. I believe that is so lovely and significant. I hope this little boy is aware of how a lot his mommy and daddy love him. Simply because we had a miscarriage and misplaced him earlier than we had been even in a position to rock him and bounce him does not take away the immense quantity of affection we’ve got for him. We’ll always remember our little Johnathan Edward.”
Otis and Hehner welcomed a child lady, Henley Grace, in August 2017. Then, in September 2018, Otis shared she had a chemical being pregnant. About 4 months later, she shared that she had a “failed miscarriage.”
Nevertheless, Otis is not giving up hope and wrote that she believes “we might be pregnant once more quickly” again in April.