CupcakKe posts distressing video asserting retirement: “You’ll now not see me nowhere”

In a distressing Instagram Dwell stream, CupcakKe has introduced she’s retiring, canceling her tour dates, and pulling all of her music offline.

A recording of the Sunday evening livestream has been shared on-line, and it’s an agonizing watch. It finds CupcakKe in her Orlando lodge room, wrapped in a blanket and rocking on the mattress as she struggles by means of explaining why she’s determined to go away music. On the heart of all the pieces appears to be that the 22-year-old Chicago artist has grown to really feel she’s “corrupting the youth” together with her lyrics. Certainly, she’s fostered a status for raunchy rap with tracks like her breakout “Deepthroat”,  “Squidward Nostril”, and her X-rated “Outdated City Street” remix. When she began seeing movies of children singing and dancing to her songs and witnessed the crowds at her all-ages “10Ok Tour”, nonetheless, she evidently started questioning her work.

“I wish to go to heaven after this,” she stated within the video. “And I don’t wish to go as… I don’t wish to go to hell. Seeing all-age children at my present and seeing them sing alongside to ‘hump me’ and ‘fuck me’ and all this shit, it has torn me aside. I’m simply not completely satisfied. I don’t wanna be round nobody proper now.”

She went on the say her sample of dropping a hyper-sexualized monitor adopted by one “that actually exhibits my expertise” was a technique that has apparently backfired. “I did it to carry consciousness to my precise expertise… But it surely looks like it doesn’t matter what I do, the sexual music overpowers the quote-unquote non-sexual music.” A latest instance of this technique entails the steamy “Whoregasm” from August and the more durable “Grilling N*ggas”, which dropped final Friday.

CupcakKe admitted to using an analogous tactic within the lead as much as her quitting music. She spent the times previous to her stream inflicting a stir on Twitter, labeling Camila Cabello “racist,” calling her boyfriend Shawn Mendes “the high quality homosexual man,” and selecting a combat with Ok-pop followers by saying the singer Chungha “can’t dance.” Now, CupcakKe has claimed all these tweets have been meant to drum up consideration earlier than declaring her retirement.

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Past how she feels her music has affected younger listeners, she additionally thinks the business won’t ever correctly settle for her due to “my dimension, my form, me having weight on me.” “I understand it doesn’t matter what I put out, I’ll by no means be ok for society,” she said, including she’s tried to change up her kinds and matter focuses. “It doesn’t matter what, I’ll nonetheless be referred to as untalented as a result of, ‘That’s the woman that made ‘Deepthroat’. That’s the woman who did ‘hump me, fuck me.” I don’t wanna waste no physique else’s time, and I don’t wanna waste my time.”

In one other beautiful second, CupcakKe revealed she has a playing dependancy that price her $700,000 at a on line casino final yr. “I realized throughout the time that I misplaced all the cash, that I’m very a lot at peace with out it,” she stated. “Once I had the cash, all I gained was those that used me and so they didn’t take care of me actually. Once I misplaced the $700,000, I realized who my buddies have been and who aren’t.”

Since posting the video (which was shot by an unseen and unheard second particular person), CupcakKe has taken down all her social media profiles. Though she has promised to tug all her music as nicely, her releases are at present nonetheless obtainable on main streaming providers and YouTube. Her “10Ok Tour”, which launched earlier this month and has seen her giving freely $10,000 to a fan each evening, can also be stated to be canceled. She’s scheduled to carry out at Atlanta’s The Masquerade tonight; Consequence of Sound reached out to the venue for clarification and was informed that, as of this writing, the present remains to be set to happen as deliberate, however to regulate their social media for any updates.

Close to the tip of the video, CupcakKe asserted this was not a publicity stunt. “This isn’t a ‘I’m carried out now’ scenario after which two weeks later she’s dropping a tune, or a month later, or three months later,” she stated. “I’m fully carried out with music. I wish to be regular once more. I’m simply carried out.”

Combating again tears, she concluded,

“I thanks everybody who has supported me, as a result of earlier than this I used to be homeless, me, my mother, and my household. This journey has actually modified my household’s life and my life. So I actually do recognize it, however I simply don’t wish to corrupt no person else. I didn’t know I used to be corrupting individuals till I noticed the video, and I bought on stage and I see these all-age children screaming out to my lyrics. And it’s fallacious. Even when it’s okay to ya’ll, it’s not okay with me. Some individuals will say change the content material, and even when I modify the content material, like I stated, I do know for a proven fact that me being my dimension, nobody will assist me. So that is the tip of CupcakKe. I simply wanna say thanks and thanks for supporting me. I actually recognize it. And that’s it.”

Watch the total video beneath. We’ve reached out to CupcakKe’s representatives for extra data.