Holly Holm is free and clear — and feels able to shock the world once more

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Marc RaimondiESPN

ALBUQUERQUE, N.M. — Holly Holm pauses for a second and takes a breath. Her thoughts drifts again to one of many largest moments in UFC historical past and the celebration that adopted. She tries to complete her sentence, however her voice cracks as she will get choked up.

The final two months of 2015 have been emotional for Holm. On Nov. 15, she did the unthinkable and knocked out the beforehand undefeated — née unbeatable — Ronda Rousey at UFC 193 in Melbourne, Australia. Then, she was whisked away on a media tour. She drove round with actor Jamie Foxx, obtained monstrous ovations at NBA video games and purchased a brand new wardrobe for all her public appearances.

A 20,000-person parade stuffed the streets of downtown Albuquerque — Holm’s hometown — on Dec. 7, 2015, to have a good time her profitable the UFC ladies’s bantamweight title.

The UFC has loaded up one other pay-per-view card Saturday, that includes two title fights: Jon Jones vs. Thiago Santos and Amanda Nunes vs. Holly Holm.

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Some cities have skilled sports activities groups; Albuquerque has Holm. Albuquerque Worldwide Sunport showcases a wall with Holm in her UFC battle equipment with a smile on her face and the American flag over her shoulders.

“I really feel like I owe them one thing relatively than them doing one other factor for me,” Holm mentioned of the post-victory parade. “I felt like everyone in Albuquerque had already supported my complete life. In the event that they have been gonna do one thing extra, it was like, ‘No, you guys do not perceive — I thanks.’ I did not really feel deserving of it, I assume. I simply did not assume that means.”

Holm is a former three-division boxing champion, defending these titles a complete of 18 instances. She’s a former two-time Ring journal fighter of the yr and considered one of many high feminine boxers of all time. In MMA, she has been a perennial contender in two divisions, is a former bantamweight champion and got here inside a detailed judges’ resolution (and a few after-the-bell punches) of profitable the featherweight belt.

Out of all of the fight accolades, that head kick to Rousey is what endlessly modified Holm’s life. She went from native hero to worldwide celeb. From the parade to the media alternatives, there was one factor she repeated: The win over Rousey was phenomenal, nevertheless it was one thing to construct upon — not one thing that might outline her.

Up to now, nonetheless, it has. That victory is at the moment her legacy, however that legacy is not cemented simply but. Holm has a possibility to alter that — and it comes Saturday evening.

Holm’s private life modified dramatically after her victory over Ronda. She misplaced three straight fights — to Miesha Tate, Valentina Shevchenko and Germaine de Randamie. Exterior of the cage, the general public nature of her success and the problem to take care of privateness impacted her marriage. After a yr of separation this previous February, she finalized a divorce with Jeff Kirkpatrick following a seven-year marriage.

Holly Holm had one of many biggest upsets in UFC historical past when she knocked out Ronda Rousey in 2015. Nick Laham for ESPN

These round her say she is a special, freer Holm going into this battle in opposition to Amanda Nunes at UFC 239 on Saturday in Las Vegas.

“Black and white,” Holm’s longtime coach Mike Winkeljohn mentioned, evaluating Holm now to the place she was earlier than. “Holly is a a lot happier particular person proper now, and it is opened her up in coaching. Now, she will be able to really deal with fights, as an alternative of worrying about issues outdoors of the fights.

“That is a tough factor that folks do not perceive till you are within the battle recreation. It takes 100% of your thought course of, of your time. It is all consuming and you may’t consider the rest. And in case you do, you lose.

“And she or he’s again.”

Holm is adamant her private struggles had nothing to do along with her losses. She shouldn’t be in search of excuses. There is not a fighter alive, she mentioned, who does not go right into a contest with out one thing taking place of their lives.

“If I did not carry out, it was my fault,” Holm mentioned. “Even when I had different issues occurring, I ought to have been in a position to compartmentalize and it doesn’t matter what — even by means of my marriage — I by no means felt sad in life.

“I do know there’s challenges with individuals in a relationship when they’re a fighter or within the public eye, issues like that. Now that I haven’t got to fret about that, I simply do what I would like.”

Holm’s efforts to cut back the publicity of her private life have been changed by an enhanced social media plan to construct her model. She began focusing extra on Instagram, an account she has had since 2014 however had been posting on solely sporadically. Final September, Holm and teammate Michelle Waterson, a very good pal, did the Ciara “Stage Up Problem” dance and posted the video on Waterson’s Instagram. It at the moment has greater than 1 million views. Holm went on her personal account and posted a second dance video in April. It has practically 900,000 views.

“I need to shock the world twice. I am stepping into with full perception I am beating Nunes. After which I need to defend it and I need to preserve profitable.”

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“Lots of people are like, ‘Wow, we see you have modified’ or ‘You are doing extra’ or ‘You are doing this,'” Holm mentioned. “Lots of people really inform me that about my Instagram and I by no means considered it. The factor is, that is who I have been the entire time. … I assume I simply opened the e book slightly extra.”

Can one thing as light-hearted as the need to publish humorous movies present itself in coaching and a high-level prizefight? Possibly indirectly. However the feeling of freedom that enables Holm to make these selections unencumbered may.

“I’ve such a giant battle developing and I’ve form of simply checked out in slightly totally different gentle than I’ve up to now,” Holm mentioned. “Sure, I nonetheless have quite a lot of anxiousness for it. I nonetheless have quite a lot of stresses and issues. You need to win. It is strain.”

That strain to win is augmented by the very fact a fighter’s profession does not final endlessly. To step into the cage in opposition to one of many world’s most harmful strikers is a threat at any stage, however at 37, that motivation must be substantial.

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“I turned professional at 20. I am 37. I’ve to have the ability to take pleasure in this journey, or else what am I doing?,” Holm mentioned. “Am I losing 17 years of my life simply being stressed and never having fun with what I am actually experiencing?”

The subject of Holm’s age comes up usually, however she does not see an finish to her profession on the horizon. Holm mentioned she thought early that she’d battle till 25 years previous, possibly 30. Then, when she turned 30, she thought 35.

Now? Possibly 40 or past. She’s nonetheless studying and enhancing.

In boxing, Holm was a three-division champion over an 11-year skilled profession. Throughout that point, although she was coaching at JacksonWink MMA, Holm did not do any wrestling or grappling. She did not begin engaged on these elements of her recreation till she transitioned into MMA as a 30-year-old. Although that left Holm considerably behind the curve, she now feels assured sufficient to have used it virtually completely in her final battle — a unanimous resolution win over Megan Anderson at UFC 225 in June 2018. After some tribulation standing up in opposition to the larger and longer Anderson early, Holm used wrestling to take Anderson off her toes and grappling to maintain her managed on the bottom for a lot of the remainder of the bout.

“The perfect Holly is in entrance of us,” Greg Jackson, one among her coaches, mentioned. “She in all probability has 5 or 6 extra good years forward of her. She’s simply getting good at it now.”

Since defeating Rousey, Holm is 2-Four within the UFC. She moved up in weight and misplaced to the legendary Cris Cyborg and to Germaine de Randamie, the latter in a disputed resolution. The blemishes on Holm’s file trouble her. Holm has been completed solely as soon as in that stretch, a fifth-round submission loss to Miesha Tate in a battle she was profitable. The title loss to Tate got here in Holm’s first protection after beating Rousey.

“There was no battle [among] any of my fights for the reason that belt that I simply actually obtained my ass handed to me,” Holm mentioned. “For me, it is like I’ve come brief, I’ve come brief, I’ve come brief. However I do not really feel like I can not compete with these women anymore, that is the distinction. … I do know I am nonetheless absolutely able to beating any lady on this division.”

Holly Holm is simply 2-Four since defeating Ronda Rousey in 2015, together with a unanimous resolution loss to Valentina Shevchenko in 2016. Josh Hedges/Zuffa LLC/Getty Pictures

Holm is aware of her legacy is on the road in opposition to Nunes, who’s coming off a knockout of Cyborg. It was Cyborg’s first loss in 13 years, since her professional debut. Nunes, a -350 favourite heading into Saturday, is now the champion in each the bantamweight and featherweight divisions. Nunes appears unbeatable. Holm has heard all that earlier than.

“I need to shock the world twice,” Holm mentioned. “I am stepping into with full perception I am beating Nunes. After which I need to defend it and I need to preserve profitable. I need to retire on high, not on backside. I do not need to retire as a result of I really feel like I’ve nothing left. I need to retire as a result of I really feel like I did what I wanted to do and that I am content material with it.”

Because it stands now, how Holm will endlessly be remembered in MMA is unclear. What Tate values in Holm is her willingness to “tackle all the most important challenges on the market.” Holm fought Tate 4 months after beating Rousey, and he or she did not should. In reality, the UFC wished her to sit down out till a Rousey rematch.

“She’s going to all the time be remembered that means,” Tate mentioned. “And she or he exemplifies what it means to actually consider in your self and that shedding doesn’t outline you, however relatively, like profitable, is all simply a part of the journey.”

At JacksonWink MMA, Holm’s place is endlessly set as a mentor and chief. Waterson mentioned a Holm nod of approval is fixed affirmation for the youthful members of the group. Nobody has ever questioned her work ethic.

“I all the time joke round that any time I am drained or this or that or complaining, I all the time assume to myself, ‘What would Holly do?'” Waterson mentioned. “After which I get my ass as much as go prepare.”

Holly Holm has labored with Mike Winkeljohn and JacksonWink MMA her total combined martial arts profession. Mike Roach/Zuffa LLC/Getty Pictures

Holm will endlessly be tied to Rousey. There is no means round it. However Holm remains to be within the UFC, nonetheless competing for titles. Rousey left MMA after getting knocked out by Nunes in 2016 and joined the WWE in 2018.

“To be the individual that beat Ronda Rousey is not the particular person,” Jackson mentioned. “That is nonetheless Ronda Rousey’s legacy. It could be good to be the individual that additionally gained once more.”

Holm is not simply preventing Nunes both. She’s preventing time and historical past. Her purpose is to nonetheless be thought-about the perfect ladies’s MMA fighter of all time. Rousey as soon as held that distinction, then Cyborg. Now most will say it is Nunes. Holm says she believes it could nonetheless be her.

“That is why this battle has a lot on it,” Holm mentioned. “I do know what’s on the plate. And being the truth that I am 37, they would not be saying a number of the issues they might be saying if I used to be 27. Being 37, they’re gonna say if I lose, ‘Oh you must retire.’ If I win, ‘Oh my gosh, we knew you would do it once more.’ It is one or the opposite.”

And if she does it, if she stuns the general public once more? It is perhaps trigger for one more Albuquerque parade. Holm is aware of the individuals there, those closest to her will probably be dwelling and dying with each punch and kick at UFC 239.

“If I lose, all of us harm,” Holm mentioned. “If I win, we’re all on a drug-free [high]. And other people do not perceive that. It’s a excessive that you just’re continuously looking for. And that is success.”

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